less high maintenance than she thinks she is.
She texted to say she'd be late, so I grabbed a coffee rather than look
like a loser waiting around, and turned up after she did - first time I
have consciously done that - set a different (and helpful) dynamic to have
her waiting for me.
Spent most of the day in heavy comfort building mode - lots of stories
about my little brother to show protector of loved ones etc. Bounced to a
DVD store because she had mentioned the need to stock up (and she had
confessed to a closet love of sci-fi - think I'm in love...) And then onto
an outdoor table at a pub in Covent Garden for a few drinks and very public
make outs. I had been steadily escalating kino from the moment we met, and
again, doing this consciously and watching for reactions really helped
calibrate things.
On for dinner this week, and we'll see if the 7 hour rule holds!
One thing that I should mention, I was able to be a lot more conscious of
this stuff because I was sober, and reading back it all looks quite
clinical. Quite the opposite, I had a fun time and it all felt natural, I
was just more aware of what I was doing. This is encouraging for two
reasons:
(1) I am internalising some of the game stuff, but more importantly,
(2) I am more comfortable occupying that meta-self reflective space that is
the key to "personal mastery" as L. Michael Hall would have it. This goes
way beyond game, but covers the whole of your life, and for me gaming is
just a facet of that journey I am hoping to go on.
Peace out, I should sleep, but as a note to myself, don't let me forget to
cover my new opener, synchronicity, and Sinn's travails...
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